My heart's been wanting to spill but I thought I'd wait a day rather than write yesterday in the sleepy wake of it all. The last show of infradig was just...something, I don't even really know what; I'm still trying to process it. It was just so full. Thank you to everybody who showed up to pay tribute, it was overwhelming to see all of you there. There were college friends, parents, people who have been part of our lives in one way or another and also just those faithful hardcore fans of the music. People came from far and near; most amazingly my very own cousin who drove from Chicago just for the night. Josh joked when he announced the end, he wanted to see a collective shaking of the fists from fans. He definitely got it. It was so nice to be able to be there since it's been about a year since I saw them last due to pregnancy and nursing. I worked the merchandise table, which was fun, and I had a good view of Josh over the moving crowd. The whole evening was a little bittersweet. Seeing them live was amazing, there really isn't anything like it. You just can't capture it on a recording; the anonymity of being squeezed among the bodies, the dim air thick with smoke, the smooth drone of the bass vibrating through your chest, eyes closed to let your emotions ride every nuance of the music, catching the adrenaline of people dancing freely. The music brought a lot of people together, it caused us to meet people and see places we would't have otherwise. Their music, like art, helped "shake the dust of everyday life off of our souls" and just made a lot of people really happy, and don't we all just need a little more of that? Seeing my love play still does the same thing to me, I'm just so proud...had the bouncer stage left not been so ominous looking I think I would have jumped on stage and kissed him. The expression on Josh's face at the last crash of Benediction made the tears start welling. Sure, we can still pop their CD's in the player but never seeing the flailling dread-headed Carl slamming those keys and Josh's bombastic drum solo's, the unique interpretive dance style of certain college friends, the music that makes even non-dancers cut loose and sway...the experience that is infradig, ending ...that is something to be mourned. So here's to you guys for almost ten years of hard work and dedication, for the passion of using your gifts to bring joy to so many, to the end of an era, to making amazing music.