Tuesday, January 16, 2007

late pregnancy blues

It's been a little while so I thought it was time for a quick update. I am about one month from the estimated due date, and can I just say I can not wait to see this baby. I can't wait to hold her in my arms and not my belly. I can definitely testify to the wonders and mysteries of pregnancy. After all how incredible is it to bond with your baby as you feel it wriggle and nudge you just below your heart. But let's face it pregnancy does not come without it's share of unpleasantries. Lately the baby girl has felt more like a kick boxer competing for her territory against my ribs and internal organs. I've been daydreaming about how nice it will be to be able to roll over in bed without feeling like I have a couple of bowling balls strapped to my stomach, to be able to hug Josh without one of us leaning over my belly. Heck, just to sit on the porch with a Mike's hard lemonade(I admit I like the girly drinks). And I can't say I'll miss feeling like a house on legs while everyone I walk by stares straight at my belly, or the routine nightcap of fruity flavored tums. I get braxton hicks contractions whenever I walk and have already started dilating and just found out that my midwife, whom I love, is off duty the week I'm due. By the way, I'm trying to get my hands on some pregnancy yoga dvds to help ease aches so if anyone has one I can borrow for the next month let me know. I know Jen does but I'm not sure when I'll see her next. Needless to say I've got a touch of the late pregnancy blues; I'll stop with the complaints.
I actually just cannot wait to see my new baby girl. I've also been overwhelmed with how blessed I am. We are all healthy and I have an awesome partner who steps up to the plate when my energy is lacking. The bigger I get and the more difficult everyday tasks with the kids become, the more thankful I am for Josh. When I feel spent and useless I watch how he picks up the slack and takes over for me. All practical stuff aside, he still finds time to listen, to rub my back and constantly keeps me laughing. During these waiting days I'm also really trying to savor times with Ella while she is still my littlest baby girl since I know my time soon will be more divided. I read to her a little longer and hold her a little longer and those moments with her cradled over my huge belly are precious.